Can you be trusted?

Simple Day.
今天发生的事，我不会当面告诉你我的感受。
就让你自己察觉发觉。
我不敢多说，因为我知道我对你说过我不会太管你。
但希望你不要太过分。
我不闻不问不是因为我不关心。
而是因为我知道我关心我知道得越多，
痛苦伤心的是我自己。
希望你能了解与谅解。
我只是在保护我自己。
我不说，不表示我不知道。
我知道你以为我不知道的事。
我不会刻意告诉你说我知道。
我不会问起关于你的过去。
每个人都有过去，我也有。
若你坚持要说，我不会反对。
只不过，我会听了就算。
不会把它当成一回事。
我知道若你要说，你自然会告诉我。
无需我刻意去问。
你的过去我来不及参与，
但希望能全程参与你的未来。
这，是我永远对你说不出口的。

25th of May, 2013

Welcome back, single life! :)
There's many things was unexpected, include of the relationship of me and you.
I felt sorry for everything.
Sorry for hurting you.
Sorry for everything.
I'm really really sorry about it.
Hope you can forgive me.
I just need some own spaces and time.
This is fate.
If you're mine, I'll be ypurs again someday :)
But since everything had happened, just let it be.
Do not beg with me.
Just let it be.
I'm always happy even without you,
cuz..I have a group of friends who cheers me up all the time.
Thanks guys, especially Steph, my babe :*

Brand New.

Brand New Life.
Wake up in the early morning.
Prepared everything.
Out on the early morning.
Went to college face a group of strangers who used to be in the same class.
It's scary.
Don't know what to do and what should do.
Wish everything is alright.

*INTI.

sad.

Wish to get a text from you. I miss the moment we use to text and talk at the night. Everything happened too suddenly. I don't even ready yet. But then when I had ready for it, you say wanna stop it. It makes me crazy. You say you won't find or text me anymore. If yes, don't even care what happened also dont reply or answer your call. What if I had really serious dangerous things was happened? Curious about it. Will you don't even care me too? I know you just don't want me hurt him. You say you can understand the feel.I guess. She did it before and that's why you'll lnow how it actualoy feels like. But if he know is just friend chat sure is not a problem. But we are not only text. The last call. I will always remember it. I won't forget about it. I promise. I will always remember how your sound is. I.miss.you.dear.
Still remember this? We must say it to each other every single night before sleep.
How sweet are we that time..
enough.
I know I can't think about it anymore.

心烦。

I thought I can't found back the smile on my face anymore, 

but..actually I can.

But the only problem is..

only when text with you.

Only when text with you, 

I can felt myself is happier likes before.

Likes we are still couple.

You know I'm angry but trying to make me happy.

I miss the moment when you used to make me laugh,

make me happy,

make me forget about we are not couple.

我忽然才发现其实，

你对我的好，

并比不上他。

我知道一切都太迟了。

所以我会尽量保持着，

我们现在这种特殊的关系。
你对我说，

你很想我。

想念我们以前有多开心，快乐。

对啦，

那时候我确实说过我会等你，

很多事情都会变啊。

你现在说成这样。

弄得我好像回到那时候。

回到你还没和她在一起的时候。

回到我还没和她在一起的时候。

那我们现在会不会还是情侣？

好迷惑。

 

1/4/2013

It's April Fool. But you find me is not a joke. But the can I know why you find me for? I know I shouldn't do these things. But..I also dunni what I was thinking. I wish it just a joke. Then tomorrow wake and you tell me it just a joke. It's too scary. I dont wanna try to do these things. And HE love me much now, and YOU is just a past. But..how come..it makes me feelso curious about it. You say out all the things that I told you one year before this. Before I got *him* and you got *her*. Arent you guys so sweet now? I really cant understand about it. I wish that day I didnt replied your message.I wish last night I didnt pick up your phone. I wish nothing was happened. I just want it end with [APRIL FOOL]

22/03/13, 16.19pm

他。。

找我了。

我还以为我在发梦，

但，

是真的。

他找我了。

曾经以为，那，将会是我回忆里最美好的时候。

但，原来我错了。

那，是我最糟糕的回忆。

我不懂，你找我的动机到底是什么。

就，当作是。。

你传错简讯才找我的。

我们。。

聊了很多。。

但是。。

算了吧。。

过去的就让它过去。

该忘的还是得忘掉。

要不然，

痛的是自己。

如果你还在乎他所说的话，

那你就彻彻底底的输了。