28.01.2015, 0912

是我最近想的太多了吗?
这三天以来已经是第二次做这样的梦。
好朋友就是好朋友, 不能变情人。请切记。

第一个晚上,
梦见了你和我提分手, 你说你已经厌倦了我,
厌倦了我那死性不改, 结果梦里我哭好多天,
起床候, 也哭了。。

第二个晚上,
在梦里, 我们一起逛超市, 遇见了我妈, 就打了招呼,
走到另一边,遇到了我阿姨, 站在我阿姨隔壁的那位,
是你的谁, 我不懂。我只知道之后你把东西快速的放到一边然后就跑了出去。我问你她是谁,你不说, 我问你怎么了,你也不说, 就一直静静的从外面看着那女的。之后我就跑了回家, 你试图拉着我, 但后来, 你松开了手, 我哭了, 那一刻我知道我们结束了。结果, 又被梦里头的情节吓醒了。

这到底意味着什么? 是意味着我们之间的爱情要结束了吗?
我不知道, 我也不敢想。由它顺其自然好了。我相信, 如果真的不合适, 那一天还是会来的。

原来那种缘份真的存在。
那个你以为再也见不到的人。
忽然就出现了。
就在你面前走过。
而你却不知道该做什么。
原本只想碰碰运气看能不能见你一面。
或许今天运气还不错，所以上天就让我见到了你。
好喜欢那种感觉哦。
那种忽然遇见的感觉。
好像当初爱上你之后的那种感觉。
算了。
别想了。
我爱的就在我眼前。
更何况，这就是人生。
有些人就只能当朋友，不能当恋人。
就算你们拥有再多的缘分也好。
也只能当朋友。
永远的朋友。

you.

Every time I saw you, always bring back of all the memories that we had been through. What should I do. Especially last night, I never thought that we will call me. Actually I saw you. But..I choose to run away, but still, you call my name from the back :) I never thought that I can hear you call my name again :) For so long :)

Can you be trusted?

Simple Day.
今天发生的事，我不会当面告诉你我的感受。
就让你自己察觉发觉。
我不敢多说，因为我知道我对你说过我不会太管你。
但希望你不要太过分。
我不闻不问不是因为我不关心。
而是因为我知道我关心我知道得越多，
痛苦伤心的是我自己。
希望你能了解与谅解。
我只是在保护我自己。
我不说，不表示我不知道。
我知道你以为我不知道的事。
我不会刻意告诉你说我知道。
我不会问起关于你的过去。
每个人都有过去，我也有。
若你坚持要说，我不会反对。
只不过，我会听了就算。
不会把它当成一回事。
我知道若你要说，你自然会告诉我。
无需我刻意去问。
你的过去我来不及参与，
但希望能全程参与你的未来。
这，是我永远对你说不出口的。

25th of May, 2013

Welcome back, single life! :)
There's many things was unexpected, include of the relationship of me and you.
I felt sorry for everything.
Sorry for hurting you.
Sorry for everything.
I'm really really sorry about it.
Hope you can forgive me.
I just need some own spaces and time.
This is fate.
If you're mine, I'll be ypurs again someday :)
But since everything had happened, just let it be.
Do not beg with me.
Just let it be.
I'm always happy even without you,
cuz..I have a group of friends who cheers me up all the time.
Thanks guys, especially Steph, my babe :*

Brand New.

Brand New Life.
Wake up in the early morning.
Prepared everything.
Out on the early morning.
Went to college face a group of strangers who used to be in the same class.
It's scary.
Don't know what to do and what should do.
Wish everything is alright.

*INTI.

sad.

Wish to get a text from you. I miss the moment we use to text and talk at the night. Everything happened too suddenly. I don't even ready yet. But then when I had ready for it, you say wanna stop it. It makes me crazy. You say you won't find or text me anymore. If yes, don't even care what happened also dont reply or answer your call. What if I had really serious dangerous things was happened? Curious about it. Will you don't even care me too? I know you just don't want me hurt him. You say you can understand the feel.I guess. She did it before and that's why you'll lnow how it actualoy feels like. But if he know is just friend chat sure is not a problem. But we are not only text. The last call. I will always remember it. I won't forget about it. I promise. I will always remember how your sound is. I.miss.you.dear.
Still remember this? We must say it to each other every single night before sleep.
How sweet are we that time..
enough.
I know I can't think about it anymore.

心烦。

I thought I can't found back the smile on my face anymore, 

but..actually I can.

But the only problem is..

only when text with you.

Only when text with you, 

I can felt myself is happier likes before.

Likes we are still couple.

You know I'm angry but trying to make me happy.

I miss the moment when you used to make me laugh,

make me happy,

make me forget about we are not couple.

我忽然才发现其实，

你对我的好，

并比不上他。

我知道一切都太迟了。

所以我会尽量保持着，

我们现在这种特殊的关系。
你对我说，

你很想我。

想念我们以前有多开心，快乐。

对啦，

那时候我确实说过我会等你，

很多事情都会变啊。

你现在说成这样。

弄得我好像回到那时候。

回到你还没和她在一起的时候。

回到我还没和她在一起的时候。

那我们现在会不会还是情侣？

好迷惑。

 

1/4/2013

It's April Fool. But you find me is not a joke. But the can I know why you find me for? I know I shouldn't do these things. But..I also dunni what I was thinking. I wish it just a joke. Then tomorrow wake and you tell me it just a joke. It's too scary. I dont wanna try to do these things. And HE love me much now, and YOU is just a past. But..how come..it makes me feelso curious about it. You say out all the things that I told you one year before this. Before I got *him* and you got *her*. Arent you guys so sweet now? I really cant understand about it. I wish that day I didnt replied your message.I wish last night I didnt pick up your phone. I wish nothing was happened. I just want it end with [APRIL FOOL]

22/03/13, 16.19pm

他。。

找我了。

我还以为我在发梦，

但，

是真的。

他找我了。

曾经以为，那，将会是我回忆里最美好的时候。

但，原来我错了。

那，是我最糟糕的回忆。

我不懂，你找我的动机到底是什么。

就，当作是。。

你传错简讯才找我的。

我们。。

聊了很多。。

但是。。

算了吧。。

过去的就让它过去。

该忘的还是得忘掉。

要不然，

痛的是自己。

如果你还在乎他所说的话，

那你就彻彻底底的输了。

ChineseNewYearMood-ON

It's in CNYMood-PlayHard.
Hmmmm...
I'm..
Finally...
Can...
Continue our friendship with our true heart.
No More Fight.
Even got, but only for fun.
I promise.
No More Break.
Even got, it just a kidding.
I promise.
I will treat you likes my true sista,
and dont even my sis can get it.
Love you, my friends.

PlayHard on this CNY.
Gotta fly to somewhere else soon.
Kinda exicited.

A Little Changes of Me.

Just change a hair look for the 

CNY that around the corner.

And change the color too x)

PS : Color is a bit diffferent with the reality. 

In reality, 

my hair was almost brown gold.

 It's a bit likes dip-dyed gold brown. 

I don't really like it at the first, 

but now, 

I'm in love with it.

Thinking....

Thinking which camera to buy. Both of them is pretty nice.

-Samsung WB150 F
Samsung WB150F

-Olympus PEN Lite E-PL5
Olympus PEN Lite E-PL5

What's on your mind?

Argh.....
What will happened to you if you saw this on your paper and your name was only not there, 

what would you feels like?

The other things make me crazy.

This is what three of us girls had did on Form 1,
I thought we will be best friend forever.
So sad.
We Can't.
They have new friends.
They forget about me.
They don't need me.
They don't even remember what we had did before.
The Saddest Case Ever.

what's on your mind?

For those girl who names 'b*tchy', I dont hate you, I just feel that you're so pity with this name that everyone hate.
For those boy who names 'assh*le', I just simply dont like what you had did.
Did you remember you did something very very wrong, and just act likes you dont know about it. Act likes it's not your fault and not you did it in front of the girl. Sh*t you.Act how sweet you are with your new gf in front of her. F you. Loser.

13/11/12, 23:41p.m.

那些曾经已任定为一辈子的好朋友，现在的你们还在一起吗？还是被拆散到不同的地方过各自的生活了？我也有一群曾经自认以为可以混在一起一辈子的死党。可是因为我们还剩下那四天的相处时间，还真的有点不舍。这十七年来，读书生涯也应该有十三年了。过了这四天，我们将会被分派到不同的地方过不同的生活，读书的读书，做工赚钱的赚钱，无所事事的继续无所事事。聚出来的时间也会变的比原先的少很多。没有人会在你上课睡觉的时候拍醒你告诉你老师来了。不会再有人借你那些等会就要交的功课。不会有人在老师问你题目时，在你桌上或纸上写下答案。不会有人在你冷时帮你关风扇。不会再有人在你没带水时分你一点。过了这十七年之后，或许不会再有这些同桌的出现。下次聚餐时的话题会是什么？是你现在的工作做的怎么，老板对你好吗，工资的高低等等。还是会变成谁谁谁几时结婚生小孩等的话题。我们没人能预测的了未来这回事。也不能预测下一秒谁会失去谁。珍惜现在所拥有的就是最好的了。

The next target.

Olympus Pen Lie EPL-5

Planning to buy this for myself if can't get the result that they want me to get. ;)

那时候的我，笑的多开心。
那时候是未和你在一起的时候。
我再也找不回那个笑容了。

29/08/12

我没有要埋怨，我没有很介意，我只是单纯的好奇。我知道这对你造成了很大的误会，我整天把它挂在嘴边，我也有错我懂，所以我不会再提那一件事，只希望我们的友谊能永久。

14/08/12

Today is Tuesday, Yesterday is Monday.
Last night I have a tuition with you, and it was the worst night ever.
You just sat in front of me, and cause the pain, I'm almost to be cried.
You saw it.
I thought you still love me, you're not.
I thought you will miss me, you're not.
I'm just thinking I know.
You don't like me anymore.
You don't love me anymore.
You don't miss me anymore.
You don't care me anymore..
How you want me to face you?
Can you tell me?
My heart is hurt..
I know it's my fault don't even know how to appreciate you.
I know it's my fault broke your heart deeply.
But now, I just want to recover my fault, but it's too late.
It's too late to recover the scars inside your heart.
I'm sorry.
All the best to you, Radz.
You are the most special one for me, and only you.
=') ily